Collaboration & Blog

I've been having trouble with whether the piece that i was going to put forth was worthy or not. This was going to be my first feature in a zine which in my case is pretty exciting therefore putting something that meant something to me meant a lot. I decided on a prose piece called Dear cool f$#k boy, it was inspired by a very close friend of mine and it was something i stood proudly for.

Dear cool fuck boy

How are you?

Hows life?

Hmm..

Nah, scratch that.

To be quite honest

I don't give a shit how you are.

I don't even know why I'm bothering to

write to your stupid ass.

I guess it's to warn others of your kind.

Don't give me that look like you don't

know what I'm on about, you know exactly

what kind of guy you were.

The sweet talker who wears the latest cuts,

and has fan girls left, right and centre

with a reputation of being a MVP at scoring

in the game.

I know you, boo

You ain't stupid as you seem. You know exactly what's up

The times when you gave me the same snap chat

of you half naked to 5 other girls.

Hash tagging me as 'sexy' on my selfies

when you thought my best friend's one was too.

I see you.

Clad and clean in Jordans, snap back with pearly whites.

Oh I see you alright, don't you worry.

'Cause so do your side chicks and baby mama's.

When you knew you had me, hook, line, and sinker

I was done.

You had me on lock, swallowed the key

no way out.

I was blinded by the bullshit you were so

good at feeding me with.

Planting seeds of reassurance in my head,

'You are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen'

'Baby, no worries? She doesn't mean jack to me.'

'I promise, babe. I would never look at another. I ain't no man hoe.'

You weren't.

You were just another cool fuck boy.

Tryna get into my sweet, tight size 10 jeans.

Please, boo.

I know you, and guess what?

I am no longer fooled by guys like you.

I remember all my friends warning me.

Telling me you were just using me.

Giving me the 'don't come crying to me' lecture.

I didn't listen and at the end of the day, I lost my dignity,

self-respect and virginity. I learned my lesson.

Paid for my mistakes.

And here's to you.

Without your bull shit, I wouldn't have found

a man that loves me for me.

Who works for our future.

Whose eyes never leave mine for another

Who pays his bills with what he earned and

not the swag he gained from laying girls down.

I pity the next girl that you sink your teeth

into.

And I hope she has more brain than I ever did.

Lord knows everyone who comes

across you do.

I won't lie I did fall for you.

Cause when I did, you weren't just any

fling, crush or romance.

You were my cool fuck boy.

x